Ignoring the signs within

Health, Wealth, Love, happiness, success we want it all, well I at least know I do.

I wake up with gratitude giving thanks that I have another day to grow as a person. I get up, go to the loo and by the time I get back my daughter is staring blankly at my face. I pick her up and head to my kitchen/living room section to prepare her bottle. I look around at the mess I made from the night before, frustrated with myself that I should have done the dishes but chose to leave that job for today as I was too much of a zombie to do it last night. I change my daughter’s bottom give her, her bottle to hold and morning porridge ( depending on the day), burb her, then tackle the house chorus. After that, I’ll rest because to me I deserve it. Eat breakfast and get myself and baby girl ready.

I’ll then spend a couple of hours of dedicated time with my daughter. We play, read books and dance around the house. Don’t forget that still includes changing, feeding ect. Believe it or not, it can be draining.

My daughter is now asleep. I use this time to either rest or go on my phone for what I feel is about an hour until I check the time and see it’s 6:30. How time flies. I shoot up and continue my mother duties, eat dinner late, watch Netflix and fall asleep.

What a day!

Now, this isn’t how I always live my days and I’m certainly not saying that spending dedicated hours of play with your child/children is wrong.

For you, It could be days that you spend all day with your friends to doing your 9 to 5 eat, sleep repeat. These days are productive although we still go sleep wanting more and knowing we could have done more and I think I know why?

We resist doing the things that we really want to do because fear is holding us back. There are people that are living their best versions of themselves RIGHT NOW! And if you feel you are then this post probably isn’t for you. If you are otherwise, then know I have times when I feel the same way too.

Slowing breaking free

To be honest this is the first day and first action step I’m taking that makes me feel like I’m making a start. Yes, I’m feeling nervous, yes I have stopped and thought what’s the point? And yes I’ll probably hesitate 5 times before pressing ‘Publish’. Although I also feel excited, I feel like I’m making progress, and is taking a risk in the right direction and for me, that Is enough.

As of this moment, I’m choosing to flow with change rather than resist it by listening to these signs within.

1. Constantly Feeling uncertain

My personal struggle is accepting that life is full of uncertainty. When I resist the changes I need to make in my life I feel lost. I feel Indecisive, hopeless and wish that I had a personal psychic to tell me what to do, to ensure every decision I make is the right one that will lead me to the future of my dreams!

I’ve realised that although, still uncertain staying still in uncertainty doesn’t get you anywhere. I’ve tried. You have to be willing to move in a direction that you at least ‘think’ and ‘feel’ you need to do that will move you forward. You see, the change will always occur in our lives but in what direction is our power to steer the wheel.

2. We overthink EVERYTHING!

One the worst feelings I’ve experienced is thinking about what ‘I should be doing’ or ‘could be doing’ whilst doing something I don’t really want to do but then I continue doing that because I’m used to doing it 100 times already and blah blah blah I procrastinate and before you know it the day is done.

When change is needed in our lives and especially when you know exactly the action to make, it will scream at you, yet still pulling you back because your brain is trying to keep you safe. The warfare of overthinking blinds us from the peace of mind we deserve. Now believe me whilst typing this I already know I need to take my own advice but from today I am taking action and kindly asking you to join me.

Today, right now! Of course, after you feed and change baby if your a Mother be sure to make that time to start.

When we start we feel nervous although as we continue and as I continue typing this post I feel more at ease and in the flow.

Finally, some peace of mind knowing you’re doing the right thing.

3. Ignoring your Intuition

If your thoughts aren’t enough, nor your heart space to guide you on deciding to face change head-on, then rely on your intuition. I believe it will never let you down. I remember the day I got my first car and got handed the keys. The feeling was off. I should have been jumping up for joy but instead, I had an overwhelming feeling that I should have Changed my mind get and continued viewing more cars. But I was excited, I’ve been waiting soo long for this car, it’s working fine so I’ll be fine. A couple of months later the car had so many complications I ended up selling it. As sad I was I automatically saw the lesson that was to start trusting my intuition. I knew I should have made the right decision then maybe I wouldn’t have got the wrong outcome.

Learning to look within rather than externally is something we all should practice for our own peace of mind. Let’s learn to make it a Habit!

Stay forever blessed.

Ren x

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